love.

man, it's been way to long.. i feel like i have just put everything aside with the end of school coming. I even have found it hard to make time to get in the word...i don't know if it is just stress or just lack of motivation. Though, on an up note i finally finished Crazy Love today...it took me like months haaha. One part really just hit me hard today. He asked what if we treated people the way we would treat Christ?


This was a complete call out for me... I've been struggling really bad with complaining and gossiping. I am the first one to complain about a situation, though never to help step in and fix it. I get so mad in my car at random people who can't drive and people who take too long at bank of America...I even had a nervous breakdown Sunday because my phone would not work and I could not see all my text messages and I felt like I was completely losing it...wow i am a bit of a psycho


Though if that were Jesus in the car in front of us, we would be completely patient, understanding, and compassionate. Why don't we treat every person like that. If we are the body of Christ and we here to " Love our neighbors" why are we not doing it? How are we loved so much, yet show love to others so little? These are the questions I been asking myself today…. I need to show more love, not only to the people I care bout but even my enemies and people who do not love me back. That is true love. That is Christ love.

Psalms 62- Aaron Keyes

"My soul finds rest in God alone, My Rock and my salvation,

A fortress strong against my foes, And I will not be shaken.

Though lips may bless and hearts may curse, And lies like arrows pierce me,

I’ll fix my heart on righteousness, I’ll look to Him who hears me.

O praise Him, hallelujah, My Delight and my Reward;

Everlasting, never failing,

My Redeemer, my God.

Find rest, my soul, in God aloneAmid the world’s temptations;

When evil seeks to take a holdI’ll cling to my salvation.

Though riches come and riches go,Don’t set your heart upon them;

The fields of hope in which I sowAre harvested in heaven.

I’ll set my gaze on God alone,

And trust in Him completely;With every day pour out my soul,

And He will prove His mercy.Though life is but a fleeting breath,

A sigh too brief to measure,

My King has crushed the curse of deathAnd I am His forever.

O praise Him, O praise Him, hallelujah, hallelujah"

The 3 W's.

it's been awhile...

waiting,wishing,wanting.

don't ask me why these three words came to me during my devotional tonight but they just did. Although I acknowledge Jesus as the Messiah and Son of God, i can't always concieve what he has in mind... I been reading about Martha latley in the bible and I feel like she struggled with some of the same things. She couldn't comprend how Jesus could raise her brother from the dead and that he was about to perform a miracle. "Whoever believes in me, Jesus Christ, receives spiritual life that even physical death can never take away."It's like we don't doubt that he controls the universe, though we have trouble accepting that he is involved in our daily lives.

I feel like I am always waiting, and i begin to doubt God when I don't see an immediate response. I don't always understand the abundant life he has planned for me, and I have been just struggling with patients. I see things other people have and wonder why God has given them that opportunity and placed that in their life and not me. I then find myself asking God for forgiveness for so often belittling him and not thinking that he will fulfill his promise.

1 Corinthians 13:12 :12We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

i struggle with this often... i thought back to this quote one of my sorority sister's showed me..

"I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there."-Elisabeth Elliot

i find myself all throughout the day thinking this..I began to wish for things of the world and not of the flesh. Things that satisfy me temporarily or things that have an easy escape rather than the eternal love of Jesus Christ. I get so caught up in wishing which turns into always longing for and wanting..

Lord I pray that you will just work in my heart to not just change some desires, but every desire and direction in my heart to you. Lord fill every part of me and satisfy me with your love. Help me to no wait, wish, or want the things of the world lord but only the things of you. Lord i know if you didn't fulfill your promises you wouldn't be called God. Lord help me to not set my eyes on the temporary but the eternal.