love.

man, it's been way to long.. i feel like i have just put everything aside with the end of school coming. I even have found it hard to make time to get in the word...i don't know if it is just stress or just lack of motivation. Though, on an up note i finally finished Crazy Love today...it took me like months haaha. One part really just hit me hard today. He asked what if we treated people the way we would treat Christ?


This was a complete call out for me... I've been struggling really bad with complaining and gossiping. I am the first one to complain about a situation, though never to help step in and fix it. I get so mad in my car at random people who can't drive and people who take too long at bank of America...I even had a nervous breakdown Sunday because my phone would not work and I could not see all my text messages and I felt like I was completely losing it...wow i am a bit of a psycho


Though if that were Jesus in the car in front of us, we would be completely patient, understanding, and compassionate. Why don't we treat every person like that. If we are the body of Christ and we here to " Love our neighbors" why are we not doing it? How are we loved so much, yet show love to others so little? These are the questions I been asking myself today…. I need to show more love, not only to the people I care bout but even my enemies and people who do not love me back. That is true love. That is Christ love.

Psalms 62- Aaron Keyes

"My soul finds rest in God alone, My Rock and my salvation,

A fortress strong against my foes, And I will not be shaken.

Though lips may bless and hearts may curse, And lies like arrows pierce me,

I’ll fix my heart on righteousness, I’ll look to Him who hears me.

O praise Him, hallelujah, My Delight and my Reward;

Everlasting, never failing,

My Redeemer, my God.

Find rest, my soul, in God aloneAmid the world’s temptations;

When evil seeks to take a holdI’ll cling to my salvation.

Though riches come and riches go,Don’t set your heart upon them;

The fields of hope in which I sowAre harvested in heaven.

I’ll set my gaze on God alone,

And trust in Him completely;With every day pour out my soul,

And He will prove His mercy.Though life is but a fleeting breath,

A sigh too brief to measure,

My King has crushed the curse of deathAnd I am His forever.

O praise Him, O praise Him, hallelujah, hallelujah"

The 3 W's.

it's been awhile...

waiting,wishing,wanting.

don't ask me why these three words came to me during my devotional tonight but they just did. Although I acknowledge Jesus as the Messiah and Son of God, i can't always concieve what he has in mind... I been reading about Martha latley in the bible and I feel like she struggled with some of the same things. She couldn't comprend how Jesus could raise her brother from the dead and that he was about to perform a miracle. "Whoever believes in me, Jesus Christ, receives spiritual life that even physical death can never take away."It's like we don't doubt that he controls the universe, though we have trouble accepting that he is involved in our daily lives.

I feel like I am always waiting, and i begin to doubt God when I don't see an immediate response. I don't always understand the abundant life he has planned for me, and I have been just struggling with patients. I see things other people have and wonder why God has given them that opportunity and placed that in their life and not me. I then find myself asking God for forgiveness for so often belittling him and not thinking that he will fulfill his promise.

1 Corinthians 13:12 :12We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

i struggle with this often... i thought back to this quote one of my sorority sister's showed me..

"I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there."-Elisabeth Elliot

i find myself all throughout the day thinking this..I began to wish for things of the world and not of the flesh. Things that satisfy me temporarily or things that have an easy escape rather than the eternal love of Jesus Christ. I get so caught up in wishing which turns into always longing for and wanting..

Lord I pray that you will just work in my heart to not just change some desires, but every desire and direction in my heart to you. Lord fill every part of me and satisfy me with your love. Help me to no wait, wish, or want the things of the world lord but only the things of you. Lord i know if you didn't fulfill your promises you wouldn't be called God. Lord help me to not set my eyes on the temporary but the eternal.

for you I sing and dance..

in your presence God i'm completely satisfied..



we look for satisfaction everywhere but God..

how many times can we honestly say that, just stop everything were doing, close our eyes and feel satisfaction knowing that we are valued and adored by our lord and savior.

My heart hurts..

So I was running on the beach this morning down at my condo in Hilton Head and there was a small plane down, half in the water and half on the beach. It had obviously crashed and there were caution signs and police all around. I figured that a plane maybe just had a bad landing but the plane looked okay and figured all was okay. Later that night I learned there was man running with an iPod in a few hours before me on the beach. A small plane grasped that he did not have enough gas to get to the Savannah airport so he was going to try to land in the water. Well because of the iPod in the runners ear I guess he could not hear the planes emergency signal landing and was literally killed. This man was taking a jog in the morning and hours later, he was suppose to be going home to Brunswick for his 3 year old son’s birthday. Can you imagine? Going on vacation and your family being notified you would not be making it home that night. This crushed my heart... What if I had been running a few hours earlier, I always run with my music blasting and don’t really pay attention.

Life is short. Were always assume…”well, when I get this age ill live this life, or when I get older ill go to church and take my kids.” We are NOT promised tomorrow. Only today.

"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus" Philippians 3:13-14.

This horrible accident made me think of this verse and Paul pressing on towards the goal of Christ Jesus, and not looking behind him. How many times to we mourn over the past, or just say that can wait...

I want to end in this verse

Psalm 118:24This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.

Let’s really live like this. How would we be living if we knew we wouldn’t make it till tomorrow or next week..

God of the impossible.

I was reading in my bible this morning in Genesis 18:1-15. Weird i know who really reads Genesis anymore hah. Though the story of Sarah really stuck out to me.

10 Then the LORD said, "I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife will have a son." Now Sarah was listening at the entrance to the tent, which was behind him. 11 Abraham and Sarah were already old and well advanced in years, and Sarah was past the age of childbearing. 12 So Sarah laughed to herself as she thought, "After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure?"

These few lines really stuck out to me cause i related to them.. Not that I was going to be 90 obviously and trying to have a baby..but the part about Sarah laughing. There are so many times when I belittle God. That’s just impossible I think. I could never get up that habit it’s just too hard to kick. Though God keeps his promises.

"Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible."-Matthew 19:26

Proof right there that God is bigger than that. He conquered powerful armies, parted a sea, and raised form the dead. And yet Sarah thought she was too old that God was not going to fulfill his promise made to her? Got to love us women we always doubt what God has is bigger and better. We are always trying to be in control.

Man, sometimes i have to step back and realized How great our God is, and that God will keep his promises-even when it means doing the impossible. Lord take my heart, and transform it. Break me away from my world flesh and desires. Lord, help me to stop doubting how big you are and how you keep your promises. Help me to realize that things are not always on my timing, but your timing is the best lord <3

Obedience.

What does it really mean to be obedient to God? what does that look like. When I put all my desires above god's desires, it always somehow catches up with me. When I stay in an unhealthy friendship or relationship that is not obedient to god, it always has a destructive outcome. Why do we feel the need to be more obedient to the world and our desires, then God's word?

For some reason we are always saying BUT...God's saying "Christie do this" "But God..."Why do our heart immediately not want to obey. God's been breaking my heart lately alot so I could hear and get the message. I had to understand that god is not asking me to do something for him, but with him. God's been really speaking to me with

Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires- Song of Songs 2:7

How hard is it, especially with relationships to look past our desires and timings and look to Gods. How many times also do we go into relationships the right way? We watched the nooma video flame tonight and it really hit on the 3 things that were made for a man and woman in marriage..

1. friend/companion
2. emotion leading to commitment
3. physical part to the relationship

Without all three of these it is not possible to be satisfied. Take affairs for example.. you have number 3 that physical part but you are always trying to get the commitment and companion part. Or take a marriage where you have the friend part, but no emotion or the physical its like they have lost the flame for eachother. See, all three are needed.

Then he goes on to talk about how they describe love in the bible ….

Proverbs 30:18-19 There are three things that amaze me— no, four things that I don’t understand: how an eagle glides through the sky, how a snake slithers on a rock, how a ship navigates the ocean, how a man loves a woman

Song of Solomon 1:2 Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth— for your love is more delightful than wine.
Song of Solomon 2:16 My lover is mine, and I am his

Song of Solomon 4:10 How delightful is your love, my sister, my bride! How much more pleasing is your love than wine, and the fragrance of your perfume than any spice!

Song of Solomon 8:6 Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame


Do we treat love the same as the people of Song of Songs? We love so many things, that sometimes it loses the meaning of love. I remember when I was in middle school every boy I went out with I loved. I am in college and looking at the "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always and preserves."-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 …..was I really in love, if this is what love is? We get so caught up in the jealously and lust. We forget why God brings two people together. Because two are better then one-Ecclesiastes 4:9. Two people coming together to bring praise and Glory to Gods name is better then one.

I feel like I went from obedience to a serious relationship talk but oh well, God's bringing it tonight haha! That verse really has been on my mind about being patient and obedient and not awakening things before they are ready. Putting the things we want in the back of our head, and keeping our eyes and focus on God. To stop planning, stop wishing, embody the flesh, and believe in his perfect love. Being patient and knowing that he is God, and ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR HIS GOOD.